...of the Doctor thing.Here's the scoop; Monday's X-rays show a "questionable persistant Fx line on the R femur".....
Plain English:
Something is going on and not healing. As I suspected.
So. Friday I go for a CT, will pick up films, and then come home and have a total collapse. Next Tuesday I see an Ortho in Ft. Wayne, and I have a feeling I know what he will say, which I refuse to write here because I just think it is bad luck.
I feel like the statue opening that crypt door. Immobile. Trying to work and mind so in knots I can't remember what I am doing. Attempting to get everything in order in case of another hospital stay. Can't figure out how to get banners done and everything else, and they must be done because I have too much money involved in them and I can't ask the church to wait for a second set.
I also feel like I am getting ready to step through a door I do not want to........
I am anticipating downtime on the blog, strictly because I need to get a lot done in a little time.
I hope you'll all be there when I get back with something of value to post.
This has been a year of ups and downs, and one more down and I am going to throw a big fit.
So, that's where we are kiddies. No more till I know what the heck is going on.
Go out and be creative and enjoy this Fall season upon us.
I bid you......
Pax.
20 comments:
Lots of healing white light headed your way.....surround yourself with all the good thoughts of those of us who read your blog and care for you. A step at a time, no pun intended.... load up on yarn ahead of time, and get stuff moved upstairs so you have easier access! Seriously, Anne, I understand the frustration - that's probably worse than the waiting...know that we're all here for you. I just wish I could be as articulate as you and write more inspiring words!
Linda, your words are quite fine and inspiring!
First, I am LOADED with yarn! That's not a problem. And other things to do by hand, so have busy work.
It's just the waiting and trying to cover all the bases and then just get DONE. Frustration at it's best.
At last count, I had enough yarn for at least 15 pair of socks knit on sz. 0 or 1 needles, which is not fast....I think in that dept. I'm okay!
Thanks!!!!
XXOO!!!
Anne
Lots of healing prayers to you my friend!! Take the time & make yourself better!!
I will be here....
Love Ya',
Marilyn
Thanks Marilyn! I just am being a whiney wuss and really don't want to go under the knife again, but....?
I need to tell DH that I need a laptop so I can blog ANYWHERE!!!! LOL!!!!
And the sky will fall when that happens! (he is, ummmm, frugal)
XXOO!!!
Anne
Believe me...I speak from experience...the work will be there when you recover.
Work on the banners, it will get your mind off the hip and give you a sense of accomplishment.
There ya go, that my 2 cents! ~8-)
Well, you know how I feel about this and I'm sending mucho prayers your way. Will continue sending you funny jokes as I receive them and you take all the time in the world...just get better. We'll all be here and praying for you...damn, lady, that's a lot of prayers. Do some work...keep your hands and mind on what you're doing....make some more of your whacky socks or finish those banners....or just watch lots of old movies...what ever it takes to keep your little gray cells from being over stimulated from what's happening or not happening.
Abrazos xxxooo
And well accepted Vicki!
I think it's partly the brain fog from the previous round of anesthetic still working---can't focus on anything.
Oh well, have some work done this a.m. and have to run to town, then get cleaned up for Honeywell tonight.
maybe I should go *as is* and frighten everyone....LOL!!! More chicken wings for ME!
XXOO!!!
Anne
Georgina---I could knit socks long nough to clothe a giraffe, with all the yarn I've hoarded.....
Enough to do, just hate waiting....I don't do that well.
Poor St. Jude---he's gonna be burned up and worn out, eh? ;)
XXOO!!!
Anne
If you are going to ask for a laptop, don't forget the wireless! Tell your DH even I have a laptop. ~8-)
Vicki, like that would move him????LOL!!!!!!
Yeah, without the wireless, it would be pretty useless, eh? HA! And that would be my luck.
XXOO!!
Anne
Anne, thank you for sharing your email with me. I completely feel for you with your physical issues. I too spent the better part of my morning with my specialist. Lot's of changes which I hope will help me. More test and more labs next week.
If you don't mind, i'll just check in on you daily just to say hello and cheer you on. No need to respond. I will include you in my prayers and hope for the best but prepared for the fear you face. Strength in numbers when praying right? Right!! You take care and only do what your able a little at a time. Seems to be a mantra lately huh? :) Hugs friend. Tammy
Anne, sending you all kinds of good thoughts and prayers. I hope it all goes well and that you'll be back here kicking our asses with your amazing artitude ASAP.
Hey Tammy,
Yes! Strength in numbers!!! I am getting mentally prepped for what is coming, and if it's a different answer, well, then okay.
Write away---as long as I am here, I will answer. Hope your *body-work* (we're like classic cars---going in for big engine overhauls and tune ups!) goes well.
Take care!!!
XXOO!!!
Anne
Hey Julie,
Thanks---I am so ready to be done with this crappola and just do my art and move on! And of course, tons of ideas and no time....you know the routine. I think the brain does it just to be stinky!
And yes, I will be back kicking and being acerbic and MAYBE even posting art! LOL!!!!!
XXOO!!!
Anne
White light and healing prayers for you. Gah, wish there was something I could do from here to help. Take care of you.
Do any of your friends have a battle axe they might like to lend me for a short time???? ;)
I'm okay---it's just all the *stuff*....you know.
Getting fixed up for the evening reception at Wabash with an art show; I seriously debated going in my jeans and t-shirt....vanity won out!
XXOO!!!
Anne
Hi Anne! I hate waiting, too. It is the absolute worse thing I am the WORST at. Unless, perhaps, you would like the title of Worst Waiter (not the food kind). I will keep you in my prayers, dear friend. I will check in with your blog, even if you have no art! Even if you have not worked on the banners, or knitted one measly little sock. I would miss you if I didn't. :) So take care of your cranky self and get better!!! xox Pam
I lost my first attempt at my loving comment as we both seek to regain our health and fight fatigue. You kind words touch my heart as I rest until I am able to sit up and do my work...with my gift in my hands and their power. Rest and listen to the muse guiding your soul...the door opening has infinite metaphors to read but I see and feel a new path for healing to appear. Imagine and Live in Peace, Mary Helen Fernandez Stewart
Hey Pam--
I like that--*Worst Waiter* as it describes me. Don't want to waste time, don't want to piddle around--want answers, and then a course of action.
And none of my measley socks are EVER little! SNARF! Size 10 feet here and LONG ways to the knee..HA!
I will be glad to hear what you're making---your work lifts my spirits!
XXOO!!!
Anne
Mary-Helen,
I do have to look at all the changes for me as a time of introspection. I can't say it's bad; it's forced me to see what is life is truly of value and what is fluff, and take some action to keep the important things.
Who knows? A whole different series of work could come out of this....I've always been fascinated with anatomy and bones. So maybe the muse is taking the round-about way of getting my attention! (which I swear, I think I am ADD)
We both can have a race to heal! ;)
XXOO!!!!
Anne
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