|Taken in my living room, quickly, when the bright morning sun illuminated everything in glorious detail for a few short moments.|
Since I was pretty much out in the stratosphere when the baseline was drawn in November (almost 13,000 with a norm of 35 or less....yeah, I am such an over achiever!) I awaited, and at the same time dreaded, hearing results. Because it is an indicator of how the chemo is working, and since it was taken right at the halfway point~~so there would be three of the six left~~I was UNSURE.
And I shouldn't have been because I know the love and care I have received especially in large portions from the blog-world, but still one doubts.....momentarily. And then you lock that away and get on with getting well.
When the Dr. said that it had dropped to 734, I was stunned to silence for~~oh~~five seconds. Approximately a 94% drop at the halfway point. (isn't it odd how numbers take over your life during these endeavors?) Then he continued, saying with the remaining chemo, when we did another draw, there was a fair chance it could be close to or in the normal range.
Again, stunned silence from me before the joyful outburst.
I am still pinching myself--yes, there is ample to pinch--and I have to thank everyone who has shown support and sent good thoughts, prayers, white light or remembered me in their meditations, because those are such an important part of recovery.
And I thoroughly intend on recovering, so I can be around to stumble through posting to blog and in general, annoying everyone. ;-)
The other thing that popped into my brain was I had received this news on a date that would not appear again for four years.....in essence, not a date I can remember yearly because it's just not there.
There is something odd and good in that, yet sort of sad in a peculiar way. (again, the numbers thing)
But it is how it should be.
And I am so thankful, and happy.
May you be so too.